2010 rundown

this is a very delayed post, but what the hell, i'll post it anyway :P

1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?

got my hair permed

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

no resolutions but ended up happy!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

yes! jiena and martha :)

4. Did anyone close to you die?

thankfully none

5. What countries did you visit?

2010 was really THE travel year for me. I disneyed at HK, got amazed by Japan, climbed the great wall of China, and "fell in love" in Singapore :)

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

career direction

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

sometime in november :)

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

ituloy ang overdue japan trip

9. What was your biggest failure?

not sticking to my travel expense budget?

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

no

11. What was the best thing you bought?

netbook

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

all my lovely couple friends who got married :)

13. Whose behavior appalled you and made you depressed?

masyado ako masaya para madepress hahaha

14. Where did most of your money go?

travel!!!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

november. period.

(top 2 ko lang tokyo adventure :p)

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?

OMG

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? sadder (but i'm sure i'll be happier in 2010 :) ) - sagot ko last year, nagkatotoo! :)

ii. thinner or fatter? fatter

iii. richer or poorer? poorer ata

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

reading!

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

shopping!

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

same as any other day

22. Did you fall in love in 2010?

YES :)

23. How many one-night stands?

zero

24. What was your favourite TV program?

so you think you can dance, grey's anatomy, american idol, house, glee, big bang theory, vampire diaries

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

no

26. What was the best book you read?

game of thrones by george r.r. martin

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

sara bareilles (kaleidoscope heart), katy perry (teenage dream), justin bieber? haha

28. What did you want and get?

love life

29. What did you want and not get?

new job

30. Favorite film of this year?

toy story 3

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

27! tagaytay food trip with my cousins

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

#29

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?

pa-girl, sometimes pambahay look haha

34. What kept you sane?

loved ones. God.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

this year, usher!

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

lahat ng issues pre and post-elections

37. Who did you miss?

this year, a lot of reunions. and i got to spend enough time with my close friends and family

38. Who was the best new person you met?

michael :)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.

never doubt His plans.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

(from rent) There's only us, there's only this; Forget regret-- or life is yours to miss. No other road, no other way, No day but today

Rest in peace, Albert

I wasn’t supposed to be writing about this. But I think writing about it is part of my healing and acceptance. As of this moment, I’m finding it hard to believe that a person so jolly, so positive, so cheerful, so kind and so caring can be taken away so soon. And the saddest part about it is that that person happens to be one of my friends from college. This is the first time I’m mourning over a death of someone close to me.

As many of our college friends will remember, we were a “love team.” Maybe that is also the reason why we haven’t gotten that really really close, as much as I would like to. There were moments when we will have this “ilang” air around us. But I’m glad we overcame that in our senior year and became real friends. I remember telling one of my close friends back then (before the heat of the tuksuhan) that I would really love to be close to this person because I can see that he really can be one of your best friends. And that proves to be true, hearing what his friends and family say about him last night. He really is a treasure.

After graduation, we remained in contact thru texts and the occasional O-1derful gatherings, sharing “kamustahans” and never failing to greet each other on birthdays and special occasions. Then after 4 years, we learned the bad news. He was diagnosed of having thymoma and teratoma tumor cells. But that didn’t stop him from being his cheerful self. When we visited him last March in Medical City, he was still that same Albert that we know, joking around and smiling a lot, even though we knew that he was feeling discomfort and maybe pain that time. From then on, I never stopped praying for his health, supporting him in any way I can. For him to improve so that we can all have our friend back, attending get togethers and outings just like the old times. To be together with the “life of the party” once again. And although I would have wanted to visit him a lot of times after that, his happy spirit seemed to be slowly betraying him. He didn’t want friends to visit, afraid that his gloomy attitude would ruin it for us. We even planned for a surprise birthday party in June to cheer him up but was cancelled last minute because we were informed that he didn’t feel like celebrating with his condition. Last December 19, his condition turned from bad to worst. He passed away, leaving friends and family, who are still finding it hard to accept that he is gone.

I don’t know when I will completely accept his fate. But now, I pray for strength and faith for those he had left behind: his family, his friends, his “the one” to understand God’s reasons for taking him away from us this early. I pray that we can all heal and move on and remember him years from now, the way he wants to be remembered by those lives he has touched.

2008 review

my 3rd year to do this review :)

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
went to ilocos and bohol; played lazerxtreme hehe; played ultimate frisbee, joined ultimate leagues, joined kayumanggi :)

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
broken my major resolution at the 1st quarter of the year, hehe. but kept it for the rest of the year :)

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes. akiko!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
fortunately none still

5. What countries did you visit?
none. tapos na yung dost bond, pero di ko pa naayos clearance!

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
more savings, boyfriend ;p <-- eto pa rin sagot ko hehe

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
feb 23, oct 22 :) the first and last quarters of the year.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
had new bonds ang strengthened some <-- eto pa rin siguro

9. What was your biggest failure?
love life? hahaha (hopefully this year hindi na ito sagot ko. hehe) <-- sagot ko last year. at hindi nga ito ang sagot ko this year. haha biggest failure ko this year hindi ako nakahanap ng new job :(

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nothing major. pulled muscle lang na pina-therapy ko

11. What was the best thing you bought?
new phone? pero dahil lang nasira yung old ko.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
ako pa rin yata to ;p <-- same answer

13. Whose behavior appalled you and made you depressed?
ang mangkukulam kong manager. haha.

14. Where did most of your money go?
travel and shopping (less purchase of overpriced coffee this year hehe)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
ilocos and bohol trip, summer league ü

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
i'm yours by jason mraz ü

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier :)
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter!
iii. richer or poorer? richer in some ways. :)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
saving/investing

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
splurging

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
same as any other day

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
hmm...

23. How many one-night stands?
zero (sabi nga ni jiena, wala namang aamin dito hehe)

24. What was your favourite TV program?
more of donwloaded series: gossip girl, grey's anatomy, american idol, house, scrubs

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no

26. What was the best book you read?
twilight series lang ata nabasa ko this year hehe.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
jason mraz (we sing, we dance, we steal things), priscilla ahn (a good day)

28. What did you want and get?
new hobby/sport

29. What did you want and not get?
new job

30. Favorite film of this year?
dark knight

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
25 na! just had lunch with friends and dinner with family

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
#29

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
trendy still, sometimes trying new things

34. What kept you sane?
friends and family. God.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
hugh laurie of house ;)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
still apathetic to political issues

37. Who did you miss?
old friends

38. Who was the best new person you met?
siya :p

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
expect the unexpected.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
(do i need a reason by d'sound)
"To hold back my fear, and let you come near, I’ve never been this far before.
To hold back my fear, and let you come near, I’m afraid of losing and still I go..."

resurrection

and so i'm blogging again by request (uhmm, who requested? hahaha)

yeah, yeah. i nearly forgot that i still have a blog. and i don't even remember how to organize my thoughts now to put up a good post. not that my posts before are coherent. hahaha.

i thought about migrating my blog to multiply. but i still have to find a way around restricting the post to some people. i don't want the whole world to know what i was thinking. also, i don't want some of my friends to know some of thoughts. i have these issues i don't want my other friends to know and just want share with a group of friends. get me? hahaha. does that mean i have to categorize my friends according to my issues? hahaha. help me out here.

don't get me wrong. i don't have major issues right now. i'm just bored. actually, to describe my current state, i'd say i'm relatively happy. uuy. but right now i'm having this fear that the situation seems to take my happiness away from me. ha! positive thoughts. happy thoughts. the secret :P

hope tomorrow (or this weekend) will be better. :)

crisis

once again, i find myself in the middle of nowhere. i woke up this morning feeling like i've gone somewhere i'm not familiar with. no voices to guide me. no signs to show me where to go next. no motivation. nothing at all. gravity is the only thing keeping me still. otherwise i'd be floating. if only i could just look for the north star and follow it.

2007 recap

got this form cham's blog last year and decided to do it again for 2007.

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
went to boracay and cebu, sang as a vocalist of a band :)

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
had no resolutions for 2007, but this year i put up a list (say, a trial list ;p)

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
none

4. Did anyone close to you die?
fortunately none still

5. What countries did you visit?
none. but this year sana meron na. matatapos na yung dost bond Ü

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
more savings, boyfriend ;p

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
no specific date. the last half of the year is memorable.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
had new bonds ang strengthened some

9. What was your biggest failure?
love life? hahaha (hopefully this year hindi na ito sagot ko. hehe)

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
eye injury c/o stat sportsfest!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
my pink sony cybershot dsc-t20 and ipod touch

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
ako pa rin yata to ;p

13. Whose behavior appalled you and made you depressed?
j

14. Where did most of your money go?
travel, shopping, coffee and #11

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
boracay trip, EK visit after 5 years (oo ang babaw ko, haha ü)

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
jenny by the click five ;p

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier sa first half, sadder sa second, in terms of both career and love life
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner sa first half, fatter sa second half. haha
iii. richer or poorer? richer in some ways. :)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
saving/investing

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
splurging

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
same as any other day

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
yes

23. How many one-night stands?
zero

24. What was your favourite TV program?
more of donwloaded series: gossip girl, grey's anatomy, battlestar galactica, princess hours, american idol (though i didn't like the batch of contestants last season), house

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
yes, pero by end of the year no na.

26. What was the best book you read?
read about 6-7 books this year but the best for me is harry potter and the deathly hallows. i also like the time traveler's wife by audrey niffenegger

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
jem (finally woken), a fine frenzy (one cell in the sea), spoon (ga ga ga ga ga) and feist (let it die and the reminder) --> bat parang ang dami, hehe.

28. What did you want and get?
new pink digicam, new excitement ;)

29. What did you want and not get?
stable love life

30. Favorite film of this year?
music and lyrics, pirates of the caribbean (at world's end), ocean's 13, the simpsons movie, ratatouille

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
24 na! just had special lunch and dinner with friends

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
#29

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
trendy still, but more daring in trying new stuff ;)

34. What kept you sane?
friends and family. God

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
johnny depp as capt jack sparrow kahit mukhang madumi. hehe

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
wala akong paki sa politics last year

37. Who did you miss?
old friends

38. Who was the best new person you met?
parang walang best. hahaha

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
nothing's certain

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"tell me, why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?..."

the nearness of you

i am not in love right now but i found myself listening to this song (norah jones' version) over and over again since yesterday.
very romantic...Ü

It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me
Oh no
It's just the nearness of you

It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation
Oh no
It's just the nearness of you

When you're in my arms and I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams came true
I need no soft lights to enchant me
If you would only grant me the right to hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night
The nearness of you